This is my poetry about CFS, please send me your poems and I'll post them up.
Send all submissions to: Amouse16@lycos.com
TIRED
I don't know what is with me
I can't get through the daze
I have no energy,
And NO, this isn't a phase!!
I get so tired sometimes, to tired to even cry
And I don't know how to go on
When I just want to die
How can I be strong?
I feel like I'm fighting alone
Even though I'm loved
The helpful sentiments on the phone
are NOT what I'm dreaing of
I don't need a perfect life
With no troubles or woes
I've always expected pain & strife
I wanted my power to show
But how can I go on, when it's me against the world?
How can I stay good?
How can I be that girl
that I know I should?
No one's on my side
Because no one understands
My friends haven't even tried
no one's there to hold my hand
I'm crying out for guidance
I'm screaming for change
How can I stay right
and yet on the same page?
I'm begging for a helping hand
And just a little clue
Someone, anyone, to understand
And know what I'm going through
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UNIMPORTANT
I feel as if I've lived life
Really not at all
Even though you say I'm important,
I feel quite small
I see these so-called challenges
As just another tsk
How am I feeling?
Do you really have to ask?
You say this is so different,
I'm brave beyond my years
You only see the heroics
Not the shame or bitter tears
I don't see what's so difficult
Or why no one understands
I don't want pity or remorse
This is just what life demands
Sure, I could do better
I want to laugh and play
I don't want the time to fade
So it's Just One More Day
You don't know what I'm about
You only see my face
YOu don't see into my heart
And find me fighting to find my place
"Studies show" and "people say"
Is all I ever hear
I wish I could talk and tell the world,
I'm so far, just as I got near.
You say that this is so much worse
Than all that's happened to you
I don't know what you say
But you have no idea what I'm going through
It's not the fear,
Or even the pain.
It's not the loss,
Or that I can't gain.
It's that I'm trying
And have a strong heart
But that's no use in
'A body that's falling apart'
I'll continue to lose
And I'lll continue to cry
But someday I'll win,
So I'll continue to try.
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LONG GOODBYES
I'll keep whispering to myself all the things I want to hear,
And I'll keeping singing to myself old love songs, cuz I wish that you were here
Although I know there's no real point in dragging out a long good-bye
I can't help wondering if there's something that we haven't yet tried
I just have to remeber that time keeps flying
What's the point in trying?
Staying longer won't make it better, it will only make it harder
And I wish things could be the way they were
And I can't help wondering if you are wrong
Or if we've been this way all along
If I thought thing could change
Things wouldn't be the same
Things wouldn't be the way they are right now
If I only knew how
So I'll keep on whispering sweet nothings in my ear
And I'll keep on holding my pillow cuz you aren't here
And I have to start righting my own wrongs,
I have to stop sining these love songs
I would ask you to stay
If I thought this pain could go away
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